Heartbeat and vacations

So yesterday I went back to the doctor and all my levels had gone up as normal but since I'm still spotting (barely) they did another ultrasound! I was pretty happy to get one bc my mom was with me and I knew it would make her so happy to get to see the baby and we actually heard the heartbeat. It was so cool. It was 122 so someone said it may be a boy but who knows. We just want a healthy baby :D I am still at a higher risk for miscarriage bc of the bleeding but he said everything looks fine so I am leaving everything in God's hands bc I know He will carry us through this! I am so excited though and cannot wait to be further along!

We leave on Saturday to go to Michigan for 5 or 6 days. I think it will be nice and relaxing up there bc we won't have a million people to see. Then on the 12th we leave for our cruise. The DR said its up to us if we still wanna go. He said the only thing is if I had a miscarriage on the cruise it would ruin the trip and I would prob blame the cruise but he said that wouldn't cause it and if it were him he'd go. So I have just been praying everything goes okay and I am really feeling good about everything! A positive attitude always makes things better so why not have one?

Today I think I am going to go to the movies with my mom so that will be fun. I need to do some of our laundry bc jeez we have stuff everywhere. We have been staying at like 3 diff places and have stuff all over lol. Well this was just a quick update but keep praying for our little peanut! :D

oh baby oh baby...

Sooo shocking news, we found out on the 17th that I am pregnant. We were both in shock but are really happy about it. It's scary to me too tho bc i don't want anything to go wrong in the early pregnancy bc I am only about 5 wks and 3 days along. I actually started bleeding on Saturday and freaked out. I got in to see the dr yesterday and he said it is most likely implantation bleeding and everything looks normal to him. He did a lot of blood work, a pelvic exam, & an ultrasound. It was too early to see the heartbeat but you could see the little sac lol. It was pretty cool. I go back on Wednesday for more blood work and then I see the dr again on Monday to make sure my levels are going up as normal. I pray that they are. All I can really do is leave this pregnancy in God's hands. I have a lot of people praying for this baby and my entire church prayed for me on Sunday and it felt great. I am just gonna stay positive and know that no matter what happens God is behind it :)

We finally made it to TN early Saturday morning after 19 hours. We got stuck in a blizzard a a stand still for an hr and a half in PA. There was ice on the roads topped with about 6 inches of snow so people were wrecking everywhere. A tractor trailer had slid off the road causing us to be stopped so long. It was very stressful. Then our Durango started acting up but thank goodness it was an easy fix and the hubs knew how to fix it so then we finally made it home :D

Its been nice being home but I havent gotten to do much thanks to the bleeding. I have been laying down a lot. Yesterday I got to go to lunch with some friends tho and today I am going to get Delaney and then tonight my fam and I are going to the lights at rock city so I am super super excited! :D

Not long till Christmas yayyY!

Photoshop & new camera :D

So I got photoshop CS4 Extended today and as a PSP user photoshop confuses the heck out of me. But I know as far as editing pics goes it is better so I am in the pain in the butt process of learning the whole program while still using PSP for now for my layout site. UGH I need to be able to snap my fingers and learn it haha. I guess I will cram this weekend with tutorials and all that jazz :)

Tomorrow my camera is supposed to be delivered so I am super pumped about that! YAY! I cannot wait to get to play around and learn how it works. I haven't been this pumped about anything in a while!

But on a sad note, I think I am getting sick again. Man, I need a new profession without sickly kids lol. But I just love them. haha. I hope it doesn't turn in bronchitis bc I have already had it like twice and I get it a million times a year. BLAH!

22 days till XMAS! WOOT!

Oh the Holidays...

So I am in such the Christmas spirit lately and I think I'm driving the hubby crazy haha! We put up our decorations even before Thanksgiving bc we are leaving to go home on the 19th so I wanted to enjoy them at least! :D I have been watching a million Xmas movies and just enjoying the spirits. I guess I am more this year bc we actually have snow here! I love the snow but I have decided driving in it is AWFUL! I only drove in it once and about had an anxiety attack. But I guess I will get used to it.

Only 19 days until I am back home with my family and friends for 10 whole days! YAY! I am pretty stoked about getting to visit home! We will be home the 20th - 30th and then are going to see my grandparents in Michigan for 10 days also, then back to NY and then Jan 12-17th we are going on our cruise! AHHH so much to look forward to in the next couple months! :D

We have been having financial strain lately but it is all coming together now. I got hired for the assistant pre toddler position so I will be working mon-fri 11:30-5:30 so I will be guaranteed hours so I love that and it will help us tremendously. We also got our orders for Virginia so in April we are officially moving again. I am really excited about it now tho. I have decided I am going to go to school for photography in VA. I have always wanted to but Chattanooga never offered it so now I am going to take advantage of it. I also ordered my first "big girl" camera... the Nikon D60 SLR! That is what I am most excited for! I hope it comes fast and then I'll be taking pictures of everything! haha!

Monday is our last bible study and it makes me sad but I am so blessed to have gotten to be apart of it!

Well I think that's it for now! :D

Election, election, election

Okay so the hubs and I didn't vote bc well I didn't make the deadline for the absentee ballots. Im a dumb dumb. But oh well. But we actually were for Obama despite most military people. I hate all the negativeness that is now going around bc yes, everyone has their own opinions but we are a UNITE NATION and even though we may not like the president we still need to be America and be united. It worries me not about who our president is, but about the people of America acting so crazy. I mean no one acted like this when Bush got elected again and look at the shit he did to our country. He about ran it into the ground. I am not political at all but all this crap talking is not gonna help our country at all. So let's just all be united again. haha yeah, I live in a dream world lol.

Tonight my endo went insanely painful and I was doubled over in pain and all I could do was scream and cry. I think I need to find a dr up here and try to get some pain meds or something bc it's sucking bad lately. My hubby tries to help but really it's just not stinking fair lol.

Well thats all Im gonna write for now. I have to let max out bc the hubs passed out on the couch. Poor thing caught my cold and he is sick as crap :(

He's Home!

So after many many MANY delays and frustration, Matthew is FINALLY home! He got home on Thursday Oct 30th and it has been amazing having him home! I mean no, it is def not a fairytale or anything bc there have been major adjustments to get used to for both of us but for the most part it's been amazing! We have spent way too much money but got a new tv and a kitchen table and other stuff we probably didn't need but he had to get all his new toys lol. He has rearranged the upstairs and although I didn't want him to, it does look a lot better. :D He started back to work today and I start back to work tomorrow. It will be nice to get back into the normal routine of things and to actually make some money again since we are broke lol.

But anyway, short update but it's bedtime.

its almost done :D :D

okay so yeah, Im a slacker at updating this thing but I have been going non stop lately. Somehow I got to work everyday this week so time is flying by thank goodness :D And I work tues-fri next week since we are closed on Monday for the holiday! The first 2 batch of soldiers came home Tues & Wed and I went to the homecoming ceremony at 3 am on Wed to take pics for nahlea. Matt was supposed to be home then but got switched back to his old unit but he will be home in about 2 1/2 weeks or so. OMG im sooo excited. EEEK! I have so much to do to get everything ready before then. I cannot believe the time is coming. We will have survived almost 14 months woot woot. Our first and supposedly only deployment. yayy! Life has been really good lately :) I am walking for Breast Cancer Awareness on Saturday and although I know no one who is walking I am proud I am still going to do it! My nana (great grandma) survived breast cancer twice! So I am walking in honor of her and all the other women who aren't here with us today! Hopefully this weekend I will finish up his welcome home signs and get all the closest set and all that good stuff! I hope time flies by!

Also, we are trying to go home for thanksgiving but it depends on if anyone wants to fly us home haha. We are broke but hopefully they will! lol. We put a deposit on our cruise and we leave Jan 12th for Grand Cayman and Cozumel for 5 days! We are sooo looking forward to that! YAY! okay all for now. Im exhausted!

Help me out :D

So I am walking for breast cancer next Saturday and would LOVE for anyone to help me out by donating for cancer research! All you have to do is click on my link and you can donate as little as $5! This doesn't benefit me bc I don't have cancer but I do know people who do so take a little time and donate for a good cause! :)

Making Strides Against Breast Cancer

Dear Coworkers, Friends and Family,

This year, hundreds of thousands of people will hear the words, "You have breast cancer," and there's a good chance that some of them will be people we know and love. I have chosen to fight back against this disease and help make a difference by participating in the American Cancer Society Making Strides Against Breast Cancer, and I hope you will join me.

Making Strides Against Breast Cancer is our opportunity to honor and celebrate breast cancer survivors, educate women about early detection and prevention, and raise money to fund lifesaving research and support programs to help fight breast cancer. But Making Strides is more than just the name of a walk, it describes the amazing progress we can make if we work together to defeat this disease.

Below is a link to my personal page. I hope you will visit my site and sign up to join my team. If you prefer, you can start your own team, sign up to walk as an individual, or make a donation. Hope starts with me and it can continue with you. Please join my team and walk with us to experience an incredible day of inspiration and meaning, and to provide hope for all people facing breast cancer.

To donate now, use this link to visit my personal page.

Sincerely,

Emily Hudson



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Life as I know it is lame.

So Im bored with my life. like really bored. I need some excitement or a challenge or something. I really wanna be in school right now so I am driving myself crazy that I am not. But in time I will be :) I only have about 3 1/2 weeks until my life is exciting again but boy does the time seem to be dragging. Although I have been working a lot and staying busy but now I am too busy and need to get stuff done at the house lol. Tomorrow I am going to hopefully book our cruise or figure out where we can go. I am so siked to go on one with the hubs. We just randomly decided to go. I think we probably will have to charge some of it but it will be worth it!

ONLY THREE AND A HALF WEEKS! I think my mind is in a state of denial bc it just seems so unrealistic lol. im so excited but jealous that the first batch of guys come back next week and my husband was the first group to leave lol. but it's okay. I will have him back soon enough! YAYYY!

Okay not much to update on so yeah im boring haha.

Project 365

So I decided to start a Project 365 and I started a new blog specifically for that. So here it is in case your interested :D

anger, birthday, and life

So monday was supposed to be good, I had an amazing bible study and was feeling great about life and everything. I go home to get a phone call from my husband saying he had something to tell me but didn't want to ruin my birthday. So I proceeded to make him tell me and he had more army dilemma. So this time the army decides after he has already signed his orders for us to move to Ft Belvoir that he doesn't have enough time left on his contract to move. He would only have 14 months when we get there and he needs 24. So they tell him, he has an option to reenlist, to extend his contract for the remainder 10 months (without re enlisting, or extra bonus), or to just stay at drum until his contract is up. Of course by this point I don't really care what happens bc I look at it as this, no matter what we do the army is gonna do whatever they want with us. It's like a never ending battle for stabilization. I try not to get angry but I am. I'm angry that they do this to us so many times and yet my husband is still gone. I am angry that he is still gone after a year and that I am stuck in waiting. I hate to be angry but it like overwhelms me sometimes. So finally we decided to just extend his contract for 10 months with no money or re enlisting. We decided this bc if he stays at Drum he will more than likely get stop lossed and deployed again. At Belvoir, he is supposed to not be able to deploy. Now in all honesty I don't really believe that but maybe they will keep their word for once. Who knows, only time will tell. He is trying to get the extension all set up but has to wait for something else to come off his record before he can so once again we are just waiting. BLAH.

My 22nd birthday was yesterday. I was in a terrible mood and was mean to Matt. I was just mad I was alone and it just sucked. My family put together some great lil care package/fun stuff for me to open and it made me smile but I was still in a bad mood. I was supposed to go out to eat with Heather but I missed my homecoming briefings at 10 so I had to go to the ones at 5:30. But I did learn a lot of information and it made it seem so close but I am very impatient at this point.

But now I just am waiting for things to happen. My life is really boring here with no one to even go eat with or anything. There is no friend I have here so it just sucks. Im in a state of Blah. I know God has a plan and a reason for this but sometimes I just wish I knew what they were.

Cleaning time...

Operation Tribute 2008

So this morning at church we had Operation Tribute 2008. It really made me remember why I am so proud of what my husband does and so thankful to all of the men and women who serve in our military. But they also recognized the silent soldiers, the ones who don't wear the uniforms, but who are soldiers nonetheless, and that is the wives. I felt so proud to be a military wife today and although my husband couldn't be at the service and be recognized, I know he is a true hero and fighting so that we can all be free! I may not agree with our country on a lot of things and even on this war but I do stand 110% behind the troops and am so thankful for what they sacrifice :D

Today I want to clean the house like top to bottom but that's a whole lot of work haha. We will see what I can get accomplished. If I didn't have constant sinus headaches everyday I would probably be much better off. Stupid change in pressure. lol. But we will see how much I get done. I may just take it easy and read too. I have all week off so I have plenty of time.

The bday is in 2 days! Woot. :D

Oh the time sits still while waiting...

So matthew got a date to leave Iraq today and told me when he is flying out so now the countdown has really begun! :D He should be home for halloween and I ordered us some costumes today! woot woot! Here is his: and here is mine: He is my prisoner of loveeee. muahahaha lol.

I am getting so excited for our lives to finally be normal but I can't really even fathom having him be apart of my everyday life. It will be such a nice change! :D We really want to take a vacation on his leave and I almost booked us a Disney cruise last night but I decided we better just wait until the next block leave (prob in like a yr haha). We are going to go home for xmas and to michigan too so we will surely find something fun to do in between!

I applied for college today but I am not sure how it is all going to work since I will have to do online until I get there so I emailed them and hopefully will get a response. It is all pretty stressful and I would like to get it taken care of and set up for the most part before matthew gets home so I'm not stressing. But who knows.

My bday is in 3 days(well really 2 now since its almost midnight). It is really weird being up here alone for it. I wanted to go home but the briefings are on my bday and bible study is monday and it was just too hectic. I really miss my friends and family and most of all I miss my two favorite kids, Eli & Delaney. I never knew how much a special bond with a child could mean to you until now. Blah it's sad :(

Okay enough rambling... time to sleep. Church in the a.m. :D

"we" aren't better, we just live different lives.....

Other spouses get married and look forward
to building equity in a home and putting down family roots.
Military spouses get married
and know they'll live in base housing or rent,
and their roots must be short
so they can be transplanted frequently.

Other spouses decorate a home
with flair and personality that will last a lifetime.
Military spouses decorate a home with flare
tempered with the knowledge that no two base houses
have the same size windows or same size rooms.
Curtains have to be flexible and multiple sets are a plus.
Furniture must fit like puzzle pieces.

Other spouses have living rooms
that are immaculate and seldom used.
Military spouses have immaculate living room/dining room combos.
The coffee table gota scratch or two moving from Germany,
but it still looks pretty good.

Other spouses say good-bye to their spouse for a business trip
and know they won't see them for a week.
They are lonely, but can survive.
Military spouses say good-bye to their deploying spouse and
know they won't see them for months, or for a remote, a year.
They are lonely, but will survive.

Other spouses, when a washer hose blows off, call Maytag
and then write a check out for getting the hose reconnected.
Military spouses will cut the water off and fix it themselves.

Other spouses get used to saying "hello"
to friends they see all the time.
Military spouses get used to saying "good-bye"
to friends made the last two years.



Other spouses worry about whether their child
will be class president next year.
Military spouses worry about whether their child
will be accepted in yet another new school next year and
whether that school will be the worst in the city ... again.

Other spouses can count on spouse participation
in special events ... birthdays, anniversaries, concerts,
football games, graduation,
and even the birth of a child.
Military spouses only count on each other;
because they realize that
the Flag has to come first if freedom is to survive.
It has to be that way.

Other spouses put up yellow ribbons
when the troops are imperiled across the globe
and take them down when the troops come home.
Military spouses wear yellow ribbons around their hearts
and they never go away.

Other spouses worry about being late
for mom's Thanksgiving dinner.
Military spouses worry about getting back from Japan
in time for dad's funeral.

And other spouses are touched by the television program
showing an elderly lady putting a card down
in front of a long, black wall that has names on it.
The card simply says "Happy Birthday, Sweetheart.
You would have been sixty today."
A military spouse is the lady with the card.
And the wall is the Vietnam Memorial.

I would never say military spouses are better or worse
than other spouses are.
But I will say there is a difference.
And I will say that our country asks more of military spouses
than is asked of other spouses.
And I will say without hesitation,
that military spouses pay just as high a price for freedom
as do their active duty husbands or wives.
Perhaps the price they pay is even higher.
Dying in service to our country isn't nearly as hard
as loving someone who has died in service to our country
and having to live without them.

God bless our military spouses for All
they freely give!

Author Unknown

Distance Learning...

So I have tried to figure out how I can still go to school starting in Jan since the army decided to randomly move us in April and I cannot finish a semester here in NY sooo I have found a community college in VA and they have distance learning. I've been reading a lot on it and think I am going to do it but deadlines are like so soon for everything and it's all baffling me. I can't figure out even where to begin. Man, I just need a personal assistant to be my brain until my husband comes home because it's dead right now lol. I think I am just going to call the school and get my steps in order to get it all set up bc even if something were to happen and us not go, then it wouldn't be like I had to pay for it if I'm not going. I think it's better to go ahead and apply for financial aid and all that good stuff. I just want a degree, at this point I just wanna be in school. I feel like it's the major thing in life that I have failed at but I am determined to get a college degree and I am going to :) Even if it takes me till I am 35, although I really hope it doesn't. haha.

I thought my life was complicated before the joys of the army but now I can't even plan stuff because we randomly get moved. BUT I am thankful for getting to experience new things. As much as I DESPISE this deployment, I think it was MUCH needed for me to be alone and to figure out me and that I can make it on my own, although I'd MUCH rather have the hubs home to help. :D

So now my task is to get this school stuff underway... If I get this done, and the hubby comes home in like 5-6 weeks, my life will just be OMG great! AHHH! It seems so unbelievable thinking about how God has blessed me in my life even though I have been a royal screw up 75% of the time. I am finally starting to see things for what they are and not just pick out the negatives. Life really is too short not to embrace it and enjoy the journeys.

Off to rest and hopefully sleep so I can take care of my kiddos tomorrow. Thank goodness only a half day :D

Weight Loss Plan!

So I started this whole diet/determination to lose weight on Friday May 27th, 2008. One day I just decided the amount of weight I had gained was ridiculous so it was time to do something about it. I started out at 165 and my goal is to be at 135 by Friday Oct 17th. I guess I could still do it but it's not looking very likely but I am truly happy with my progress! I only have about 7.5 lbs more until my goal so we will see what happens in the next month! :D

Starting Out...

So I have decided to blog my thoughts since I can't seem to sleep anymore. I will just ramble in here.

Well homecoming is getting closer and closer and it has me so antsy and anxious that it is becoming more and more impossible to sleep or to do anything but wanna scream. lol. I've waited for him to be home for over a year now and finally in about 5-6 weeks he should be home with me for good. :)

This does impose some fears, questions, and uncertainties along with the excitement and happiness. In this year I have been alone, so I am now annoyingly independent, not by choice but because I had to get by. I don't really know how I will take to someone being around 24/7. I'm really not to worried about it because I have so much excitement the independence seems so small. I just hope we can work out a schedule together and finally get to be a normal family. :)

I have started this whole bible study on Monday nights and so far it has been great. I finally feel like I am growing closer to God and that he is going to do some amazing things in our lives. It is also a study on how to become a Godly wife and just a wife in general so I am gonna learn some basic tips since I really know nothing about being a wife to my hubby. One of these days, maybe I will master cooking haha. I think I am finally starting to get the cleaning down!

Found out that we will be moving in April and although I was in NO way happy about this, I think I am starting to get excited about it. I have heard nothing but good things about the base and maybe I will get a better army experience bc so far the army is a bunch of idiots for the most part, or that is how it has been shown to me. So although I will have only lived in NY for 9 months and moving again, I think it will be def worth it. God brought it to us and He will bring us through it :)

All for now. Maybe I can get some rest.
EmmaGrace♥